And it was already behind him

"...No strings attached." ~ No Strings Attached - *NSYNC

She wanted so long that she thought he had died. She did the next best thing and almost forgot him..... until he came back

ZOMG I PROCRASTINATED TOO MUCH LAST WEEK!!!!!
Zzzz and I am lacking sleep as well. What have I been doing?

I do not know. What is it I don't know?
Maybe I should be like ice and just melt away everything.
But does that go anywhere?
Maybe I should be like fire and just burn everything
But will it come up with a solution?
I should just be content with what I have
Because I have everything that many people want,
Why do I want more?
To the person up there, the omniscience, the one people call god,
Why do you make us suffer? They say god is also the devil in disguise.
Its like a cycle of suffering and joy.
What comes around goes around.

Is it weird to feel used but also to feel indebt?
At times I swing between the two.
And maybe I should just get rid of it all together.
But then the question becomes why, how and what?

Maybe is it behind me
I had forgotten the feeling
The mistep
The thoughts
The movement
The paralysis
Maybe it is, but only time will tell

I miss them alot but I know they will soon come back...

I would like to thank Snaeharfn in advanced.
And if she is reading this, do not doubt that I trust you


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