A Day Without Rain

"...The baffled king composing hallelujah..."

Song of the month Feburary 2012
Satellite (Above and Beyond mix) - Above and Beyond presents Oceanlab

Sorry that it has been a month but things happen and uni started. I've been lazy and too busy to actually blog but this one isn't going to be long. I've just been thinking about the same thing over and over again pondering about the thought of it.

So got back from Vietnam, got skin irritation from different climates and next day O-Week. Uni started all lectures which was fine but almost fell asleep during a maths lecture... meaning it was boring. Had my first lab yesterday which was fun making circuits on bread boards and all. And now slowly assimilating to uni life.

Went out last Saturday with the group. It has been a while since I last seen them and I enjoyed the outing with lunch and fitting 18 people in a photo booth. But in a way I never felt so distant and I guess it is because we have all went our separate ways with different Unis and different courses that we do not see each other any more. There will be a time when people will phase out due to our career's and lives but will we still contact each other like we do normally? I believe we will due to social media being so integrated with our lives. But it doesn't stop me from wondering.....

Which leads me to my thoughts these days. Friends. If I were to define a friend that would take half my 'friends' to become acquaintances or peers and the other half to be actual friends. But does it really work that way. The Oxford dictionary defines friend as "person, not a relation, whom one knows and likes well" I define friend as someone whom I interact with often and be able to trust them with certain aspects of my life whether it be something small or something big. And I guess that decreases my numbers by a bit. But then again are the friends we have truly our friends? Do we see them as such? Or maybe if something were to happen will they come and help? I guess I have treated several people in a manner that will indirectly hurt them. I'm such a selfish guy.

I guess the next thing that comes is expectations of friends. To be frank, I really expect a lot from my friends. If I put this much input into the friendship then the friend should at least try to put that much input as well. The reason why I have such expectations is one from experience and lessons I have learnt from my past and what I have witness. If you were to call someone your best friend would you think that they would think you as your best friends? Yes you would but then in reality it is not always the case. And I guess this is where my expectations come is to stop such from happening because it hurts when you find out. Sure I still fall into this trap but I guess I pull myself out of it before it starts coming. But it is not good to have such values because it ruins the friendships you have.

I guess that is life and life goes on.

I am taking a break from everything, wanting to start all over again and but knowing that I can't really. But some things can start over again just not back to square one.

Hope everyone is having fun with uni and I'll see some of you guys out and about.

Godspeed


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